The only time I cherish my school memories is during Christmas.
As a student of a convent school Christmas was the most religiously celebrated festival of our school days.
The Christmas parties were the most awaited thing of our annual calendar.
The sight of the Santa Clause used to make me feel very special. When he handed me those chocolates I used to feel that here is a man who really cares.
I loved every part of it.
The charisma of Christmas ended along with the end of our school days. Since then Christmas has been just a vacation and nothing else.
There were times when I realised that I did not miss anything. I was living a life that was perfect. I pitied people who though I need to change. I had the best place to live. The best friends to be with. The best Motorcycle. The best team to play for. And I loved being what I was.
After a few years I found that I was stagnant.
Then, gradually I had to give up on a few things. I came across people who, earlier, had no part to play in my life.
Many of them introduced me to a new dimension of life.
From a very monotonous and predictable lifestyle I was pushed into this multi dimensional way of living. Gradually I found that I could deal with any person in any situation. And even then I could hold on to my own peculiarities.
I was engrossed in so many different things that life became confusing. Dilemma became a routine. To be or not to be was the 1st question. To be here or to be there was the next.
Suddenly, I felt like a child at the toy shop. I wanted that big green trash truck toy in my hands but I also wanted to ride this cycle.
There started this never ending phase of catching up. Catching up with responsibilities, catching up with irresponsibilities.
I had to play a role everywhere. A boss in the office, a coach on the ground, a naughty guy among friends and zany among relatives, a sincere fella at home and so many more...
When I was playing one roll I missed being the other.
This was a fresh feeling. I missed something.
To miss something is the gist of being alive.
I miss something cos I demand it. I demand something I want it in my life.
Hence I prove that I am alive.
At times it makes me feel desperate, helpless, hapless etc etc etc...
But then I like to believe. I believe that I will have what I want and it is just a matter of time. It makes the journey enjoyable.
Dear Santa,
Please give me dreams - impossible dreams - dreams which I can chase throughout my life.
I would love to be known as 'chaser' - even if it is at the cost of being an 'achiever'.
Give me so many dreams that I miss being contented.
And give me the energy to chase those dreams.
After all, what is life without that impossible dream?
For others ... do give them hope.
Thank you Santa
Merry Christmas
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there was this calvin and hobbes comic where calvin asks "If you had just one wish, and the wish could be anything, what would it be?". Hobbes says "tuna fish sandwitch". Then calvin is surprised... "I would ask for lots of money, private rocket to moon, and a private continent...etc." The next picture shows hobbes eating the sandwitch, and saying "at least my wish came true"...
I guess you are more like calvin and I am more like hobbes :)
Ok here is my wish... if only there was a way to search the calvin hobbes comics by keywords...
here is a wish ....
I want to get a batsman out
st Ashutosh Khandkar b Ashutosh Khandkar.
I've seen Popeye doing wonders when he swallows a canful of spinach ....
The idea is to have an impossible one...
find me one ...
The concept of having a impossible dream is hypothetical..
and santa, i was told in school, has the power to grant all ur wishes...therefore nothing is impossible.
how about chasing one thing at one time, achieving it..closing a chapter and starting a new one..its like having the cake and eating it too.
U are a chaser and a achiever and have achieved and chased every..impossible dream. its a win win buddy.
Incidentally, do u remember tht geeky looking, specy, 5 ft couple inches tall, ur best friends sister..someone told her she couldnt be an engineer, coz she wasnt good at maths, an airhostess coz she didnt have the looks and being a pilot was a impossible dream.
I've heard she is now a pilot, with an engineering degree and was an air hostess.
I met her just the other day, and she said..my achievement is only " doing what people say i cannot do"
I heard she wants to go to the moon next...who knows man, we might c her there someday!
U are what u think u are, a just a chaser or an achiever is just a way of looking at it!
I happened to read an interview of BOBBY DEOL a few years ago.
He was asked about his aspirations if he wasn't and actor.
He bluntly said "If I wasn't an actor.. I would have been a struggling actor."
Different people when asked the same thing give different answers. But this answer made me think.
Here is a guy who is from a family of superstars. Yet he is struggling to make a mark for himself. How often might he be facing humiliation. But still he wants to be there. He wants to fight it out to be there.
Its is not about fulfilling your desires and accomplishing your ambitions. It is about hanging on even when you know it is not possible.
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